It’s weird what I’m about to say, but I feel like I have to explain myself… to myself. So explain I shall try.
Back on topic. Connections.
There are blood connections. Family. You love your parents without really ever thinking about whether you love them or not. See I just made you think about it, and I’m pretty sure you do unconditionally. Yes, I said it. Unconditionally. Like even if they have been assholes to you, you love ‘em.
Then you have your friends. People you’re connected to by choice. Oh, cool, we go to school together and have similar interests? Friends! Oh so we happen to be studying the same major and have all of the same classes together? Friends! Your taste in music is impeccable? Friends!
But then, and this happens rarely, you’re connected to this boy. And no matter what you do, no matter how much you try to get away, to not think about him, to convince yourself that you’re no good for each other and all that good stuff… you keep coming back to square one. It’s not a case of not getting over him, but it’s a case of feeling like, for some reason, the world has destined you to be here. Thinking about him. Having this connection that you just do not have with any other human being on the planet. You can talk for hours and never get bored. It’s not even a physical thing… not at all. I’d be lying if I said he wasn’t attractive, but I’m telling the truth when I say that his looks are the least important thing to me. Which you may not believe me because my friends know I have harsh standards when it comes to male attractiveness because I’m an asshole like that. Back on point:
I feel like he could be the better half of me. I feel like he is the better half of me. And all I want is a chance to find out whether I’m right or not.
Do we not understand what Allah (tabaraka wa ta'ala) has in store for us if we are obedient? Gardens under which rivers flow; Palaces of gold and silver; wives of unparalleled beauty, eternal life and happiness and all we have to do is worship none but Him, obey His commands and those of His messenger, and stay away from His prohibitions and those of His messenger? Indeed Allah is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Raheem.