Sometimes Allah takes everything from you so that you may turn to Him. And sometimes Allah places certain people who let you down in your life to teach you that you should never depend on anyone but Him. Allah will never let you down.
Since the beginning of this year, I’ve had a difficult time concerning my health and school including a tenfold of other issues I’ve never faced before. Yet, I still manage to laugh here and there; not to mention, I am also always there for my friends when they need me. I don’t mind tossing aside my problems to help others with theirs.
It is immensely frustrating when you need someone to help you cope, or to forget, but no one seems to be there. I always tend to get an attitude from friends going through something, but no shit, I’ve been living a traumatic life for years now, I don’t release my frustration at you. Control yourselves.
Given my partial hearing loss, you would expect that people care. No one genuinely cares. Sometimes I create deaf persons and imagine myself free. I would do anything and everything for them, so they’ll never have to feel that they’re not like everyone in one sense. I don’t think I’ll ever find the words to explain how truly heartbreaking it is to live a life with a disability in a modern-day society. People are so selfish these days. It’s like nothing else exists.
We are in our own worlds, but sometimes you have witness another’s to realize how much worse it could be.
“Ever since puberty, ever since I was 11 or 12, I’ve had cyclical depression. That’s something that has been a defining feature of my life as an adult. It’s manageable. But it’s real. And it doesn’t take away from my joy or my work or my energy, but coping with depression is something that is part of the everyday way that I live and have lived for as long as I can remember. … Depression for me, you can’t distract your way out of it. … When you are depressed, it’s like the rest of the world is the mother ship, and you’re out there on a little pod and your line gets cut and you don’t connect with anything. You sort of disappear.”—Rachel Maddow, on depression
Oh dear…=) *shakes head and smiles* Sabr pyari behnu - mey thees saal ke hoon aur ab tak akele. Agar hum sabr karsakthe hain, aap bhi karsakthe hain, han ya na? =) Boht sare du’ain ke aap ki Mr jaldi se aagayga.
Oh my God Bhai, that is beautiful! :’) May Allah grant you everything you desire and much more! It is indeed hard, inshaAllah Allah hum ko sabr dein. If anything, I hope you find someone that much sooner, InshaAllah Khair.